i just need a man.

good morningg .

i'm a little confused right now.

what was i writing about, what was i thinking about.

it was too complicated.

i just can't remember anythingg right now.

empty.

yeah, i told u so.

being in love makes me suffer.

and all my friends keep telling me to forget him.

but before this, i won't wake up for my big fantasy.

and it was became worst and worst.

last night at 3.16 am., my mom heard that i was crying in my room alone.

she knocked the door and open at it slowly.

and said[dlm loghat kelantan] : jgey oyak mama hup aqys nanges sbb jatey.

and what can i say. yeah, it was. i was cryingg about a boy.

a boy that leave me hanging up without no answer.

he promised me that he won't leave me but what happen ?

i told mama everyhting, about my broken heart, about his promises and about what happen last night.

and she said : mama pehey, mama pnah lalui semua neh. tp doh dyo xsyg kto, jgn harapkan dyo lg.useless. mama nk anak mama bahagio.

useless. yeah. mama, thanks. u were there when i need a shoulder to cry on.

see, every single moms know their kids instinct.

the instinct to be loved, and they loves their kid.

she also told me if we were heart broken once, it was a common thing.

at least we got the feel from a heart breaker.

and tengs to wana and arwa. they are so warm-hearted to console me when i'm sad.

they always support me no matter what am i doing.

arwa told me that's why she won't told the person that she loved, because it is gonna be like me.

i don't need a man that left me with a full of prospected that he loves me too.

i just need a man that will always be with me and catch me when i'm down.

i just need a man that can accept me even when my quirks come out.

i just need a man that can gives me all his heart and make it mine.

but can i get that man ?

that man was too perfect for me.

i don't want a pefect man but i need a man that only seems perfect to me.

that can treat me well .

thanks to the heart breaker.

he made me realized that he wasn't the right person for me.

* wana and aena, sorry i didn' t ell you about last night but i 'll tell u later.

love yaa.

to qenkarians : i mimiss you like a fat girl needs a chocolate bar :)

kita still rocking kam ? ouyeah !!